~~Wah !!~~

Really need to start shaking already.... ....time running up and i'm still not yet start to rush my work... ... ... day by day, hour by hour... i just let it past over without using it for my work... ...now is 1st of May... ... 12 more days to go before the "deadline"... ... need to push until the 101%... ... ... ...

Other than work also worry for my digital camera, need to send to repeir again. My sister accidently pour water onto the digital camera. My poor little camera, you are away from mama again... ...

My singapore trip hopefully can become true... i need to do my passport then can go after grad. Who want to join?? we going end of May.. !! wahahhaha... ...

~~Outside the window... ...~~

Today also a buzy day. After lunch we go to Midvalley to watch the "footsa" game, BOY FROM BRAZIL vs M'sia... we reached there around 3pm and we managed to watch the final game. But sadly our team lost terrible and horrible. Brazil win 12 vz 0 ... ... .... ... what a #@*! game.
After that, we went to puchong old house to clean up some rubbish that left behind by those "bastard". My sister bring me a bad news today, that's my digital camera damage by her !! i just manage to repair it 1 week ago and now damage again and is cause by her carelessness !! Make me so sad. On the way back cheras i just look outside the window and think of my camera... ... so sad!! But on the way, he talk to me a lot and i think he misunderstand me... ... so sad... sad + sad = crying. I try not to cry infront of him already, i know he raelly very tension all these while and i try to kept my smile for him... ... ... ... but not today, i can't "smile" and i just look outside the window and try to find my own spot to rest my mind... ... ... ...
I know he is very tired and i try my best not to make him worry, i kept all the unhappyness to myself and i really try my best to cheer up him and accompany him. I dono what to do somemore... .... ... .. .. . . .. ...
Sad for me and my fyp... stil 0% progress... ... ... ...

~~near ...~~

So fast and so near to the "deadline" already... ... my heart keep on shaking and i can't stop it. Really feel the fear from my heart. First time ever, i don't know how to react to this situation... BB, i really need your support... i can't go through this all by myself... ...

Yesterday should be a happy night that we go to "pasar malam", i love to go pasar malam walk walk and eat ...but yesterday a lots of food i cant eat coz just recover from sickness :( i want to have fun but not that fun actually... so "sien" ... then when we wanted to go back, start to rain. Run and run to the car but the road seem like will grow longer and longer, whole body wet already also haven't reach the car... both of us so moody... I'm so mad and feel so sad, really want to burst but don't know why after see him also that angry then i keep quite and sit there only... but in my heart i'm really so unhappy... ... i just kept it to me only... ... ... ... ... ...i try my best to accompany him all these time, i know he need me to stand by his side and suppport him, so am i... ... hai... ... don't know what and how to express my feeling... ... ... ... ...

~~What a day... ...~~

Today really a bad day..... ... make a mistake that will cause me heavy payback, and not what i want . . . . . . Cant eat well today.... and no mood to eat also... ....

Just after a phone call with my good friend, she face a really big or can say huge problem now. I wish i can be there to share with her. I really hope that she can be stronger and stronger. Never give up !! Be strong and i'll be there if you need me... ... ...as always :D

Dont be sad on what already been done by someone u care very much. Is not your fault and you no need to bare all the dept... ...What ever happen, dont think of stop studying, you must stay to finish your study, thats is for your future... ... Anyhow, good luck and will pray for you !!

~~First time ... ... in the midle of rain~~

Wah... just now so excited... :D
3 of us walk down the condominium to have supper at a mamak stall at the road site. Is very near to the condominium so we just walk there. We had supper there and chit-chat a while. Suddently started to rain. At first just small rain and we didn't border about it. We try to eat faster so that can walk back while the rain is still small.

After finished, we paid for the meal and ready to leave. Suddently it start to rain cats and dogs. We stuck at the table and cover by an umbrella. The rain so heavy until we lower the umbrella until our head can feel the rain drops. The wind so cold and my back all weat because of the rains falling behind me. We can't hear each other accept for the rain drops... ...

I'm thinking want to run back to the condominium, but its wont work. The rain too heavy... ... what can we do?? Oh ya, call for help... but where's my handphone?? Lucky he got bring it, then we call another friend to come and fetch us back.

Hehehe... what's a experience... ... First time supper at mamak facing such problem. We didn't bring umbrella although we are walking to the mamak stall. So next time must remember to bring umbrella... ... :D

~~Should ... ...i... ...~~

"该面对的，我绝不逃避，
该执着的，我永不怨悔，
该舍去的，我不再留恋，
该珍惜的，我会好好把握！"

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i like it very much, i think it is so meaningful. If i can be like that then my life will be much more easier and happier... ... There are so manything in life that we aren't brave enough to face it and deal with it, and many people want to stand firm on their belief but keep on complaining even regreting.

~~confusing... ...~~

i'm so confuse now...
i need your support more than ever...
i don't know how i can go through all this if i'm alone...
keep too much to myself and now feel like all want to bomb out...
i still try to kept it with me...
all with me and not to make you worry...
but i dont know how long can i hold it...
everytime look into your eyes...
i feel like want to cry, but i know i cannot cry...
you need my support at that time and even now...
i try to give you all the support and not to make you worry...
but i really dont know ... ... how? how long?
am i really that strong??

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Hahahah.... all crap... ... ...
do assignment until "ki siao" already... ...
Wah!! wanna die soon because the "deadline" soon ... ... ...